RaVeMuSiCa

2009-12-11T02:09:00.008+08:00

Pre-Script: I know it's a habit of mine to highlight sentences which mean something, so to facilitate reading and attention level. However for this post i urge everyone to read the full posting, as this post is very important most meaningful out of all my posts so far. So here's one good solid red text-ed paragraph. Enjoy.

Hmm.. very long... for me to post something again is something really rare.. I was wondering whether or not to let this blog die. But it seems i have too many thoughts and happenings. In fact many things happened after my wordy post on attachment. One of them is the concert, which you can see from two videos posted before this post. Another one, is something better said face to face. Typing, or without a proper communication medium will make things very ugly. Thinking that perhaps I am referring to someone? No i dun have enemies, though i may be an enemy to some, but no one is my enemy. In fact i refer to anyone (this is talking about the thing "better said face to face"). The last thing is about my mum. Why you ask? Because regarding my mum, things are pretty interesting. Or should i say, "very"?

Now, ever since she passed away on the 13th of Feb, the all-so-significant date (for reasons refer to my old posts), every now and then, i learn something. Just like this movie. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0431308/plotsummary It is like only after she passes away, i start discovering the life that she TRULY led, the thoughts she TRULY had, the spirit she TRULY possess, the profound-ity of her thinkings and dreams, the reason over her actions and thoughts. In short, how TRULY wonderful my mum was.

Now people, this isn't some dramatic scenario when the mum passes away, and the son lives in regret over his past un-fillial and un-appreciative self. And the "wonderful" i am talking about isnt some simple "wonderful" people say during funeral speeches. This "wonderful" can only be experienced by someone who truly feels it, by how? By living in it, right here and now. I can testify this word "wonderful".

Why suddenly since 13th of Feb, after i had multiple experiences, i begin to blog about it? Coz i feel tat i cannot hold this piece of information any longer. Let me first bring to you one true incident.

Ying Han is a mentally challenge individual. He is a member of the Singapore Soka Association. Here's the global network. http://sgi-usa.org/ Under the student group NYPSD (Nanyang Polytechnic Student Division), I am entrusted to take care of this member. Ying Han is a very interesting person, not much about him here, but just for the benefit of all, he has a tendency to run away from home. Dun question why or begin drawing faults. Keep the fact as that will do.

On one occasion, he ran away from home again. I took full responsibility for a couple of hours from night till morning, in the search recovery of Ying Han. His cellphone sim card is taken out. It was a battle. I prayed. I began fighting for this member's life. In my conquest, I can see clearly all the factors which encompasses the reason for everything. In short i am somehow "enlightened enough" in that period of time to see things. My prayers were profound yet to the point...

AND THEN MY MUM APPEARED!!!!!!!!!!

lol, like that would happen. As vice general director michael yap would put it, "That isn't Buddhism". No in fact what i experience can be explained by buddhism definitely. I wish i could find a better way to introduce my mum into the topic but, actually things are as simple as "I felt my mum during this episode". I was like "Mum, you handle those useless noises-in-the-mind. I tackle the main problem here, to chant for Ying Han and his family. Nam Myoho Renge Kyo Nam Myoho~" I feel that someone was really filtering out the noises hindering my clarity of mind. I felt my mum.

Feeling my mum, in such a tense and fighting situation, is as though it's something she would want. Feeling my mum isnt a typical drama scripted line. I really felt it. Why is it so special? Sons feel their dead moms all the time. Yea that's true. But consider this:

1. I never felt my mum since she died.
2. I never felt sad when my mum died.
3. I only feel it then (and multiple similar occasions after which).

To explain, maybe starting from point 2. I was never sad when my mum died, I just dunno why. I dropped tears of happiness and hopes that one day her dreams will be achieved. I am crying for the day because i can visualise that day's coming. Her "Soka High School" will be established in Singapore. It may sound, wierd or brutal or stupid to some. But for people who truly understand my mum, understand the life she led, it wouldnt be. Let me state this once and for all.

"I have yet to see anyone fathom the life my mum led, her thinking and dreams."

"Wonderful" mum? "Special" perhaps, "unique" maybe? She was different from other women, other mums. Some may feel i am making a very extremist remark. I have only one thing to say to you, think Mother Teresa. "People achieve greater things, do greater good than other people when they first start to do things differently from other people".

Coming back to point 2, I was trying hard to come up with a reason why i dun feel sad over my mum's death. For those who knows what i have been through with her should know that it is not because i am unfeeling towards her. But I really do not know why. I do not know why i didnt drop any tears when i read the eulogy. I was thinking, maybe i was being very rational and priortising achieving her dreams, our vow, and inspiring people at the funeral, over her death. But now i realise it's not such a case. To explain, i will be using points 1. and 3.

Before that, I want to also proclaim that my mother's sisters (aka my aunts) think that know my mum, and know her life. To them, she led a life of suffering. To us, she led a life of victories. Same person dead, but so subjective when it concerns two parties. Why? Is it just a matter of subjection? Or is that actually a more "correct" answer? I believe that the correct answer is she led a life of victories. Even in her coffin, i have people coming up to me to thank my mum for saving their lives. Details not covered here but, imagine this. Imagine such a value creation funeral. Can normal people who aren't enlightened fathom such a fact? I believe when i shared my eulogy full of dreams and missions and philosophy, many thought i was crazy. People expect a eulogy to be full of sadness, sad memories of the once living deceased. What's the use of that? lol. So i am different la! ok, so what does it mean? *shrugs* Doh! =.=" It's as though, "The redder the better" (for tomatoes) becomes "The sadder the better". BULLSHIT! you want a tear jerking eulogy? attend Hilter's funeral. Because either people cry over the deaths of jews, or cry for joy over his death. xD

Make it simple for points 1. and 3. I can only feel my mum when i do what she do best. Fight with her life for others' happiness. Imagine a cartoon with the main character drawing out his/her inner powers out by intense focus. "ARRRGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!" that kinda thing. I feel my mum's spirit, her powers, in me now. But i cannot exercise it unless today i am put in the right situation! Get it? That's the simple explanation. =)

My life is now a mix of witnessing her struggles, because i am immersing myself in a lot of life-saving activities, awakening the warrior and mission in everyone. By doing this i can really taste a speck of my mum's value-filled life, her joyous encounters and experiences of true happiness. I have yet to pass 1 year, but yet i have seen so much. Considering how vast her life was in a small part of Singapore (note the irony), I believe there's more to come. Does anyone understand the desire for me to feel and "see" my mum? And knowing that the only way to do that is to fight? Fight to feel my mum within me. The more I struggle, the closer i get to understanding my mum and the more I feel her. Is such a life interesting like i promised earlier? Haha

Something happened recently that made me realise even more. Actually it all started from this statement, "Would your mother be pained if she sees you like this?" A bit of prologue, I am working tirelessly now till my gf is really concerned at which the rate i am burning my body. Somehow i brought in my mum, and I guessed she would say that.

I believe my mum would have supported me, why? Because what did she die from? From fighting against cancer, paying no heed to the illness and continue to go out of value creating activities. Today i am doing the same thing, I am seeking self growth and development under training. I am changing my life, in the right way definitely. I am sure she would support me.

However, all mother cannot bear to see their son suffer. That's where she is really different and thinks differently from other mothers. What is suffering? suffering is needless and redundant pains. But challenges are a way of promoting self growth! As long as it does not come in the expense of harming or hurting others. The definition between them lies a world of difference. "Many fail to judge the difference, thus viewing all challenges as suffering and pains. In doing so, you give up your potential to breakthrough your limitations and self. Such a life is really regrettable." -quoted to the best of my memory/knowledge and experience of Buddhism lectured by Daisaku Ikeda.

My mum is very enlightened. She does not reprimand me for coming home late from work, but does so when i play computer till late, because those are causing unnecessary harm to our body. She has a clear vision of what is really right and what is really wrong, not mixing up both. Her visions are very far sighted, she knows young men needs to undergo training, just like our mentor Daisaku Ikeda and all Young Men Division members in SGI.

Many would at most judge my mum's thinking and actions as a warrior mum. Perhaps sometimes even misunderstanding her standpoints. One such example is better put in a question of "Is being a warrior mum means to give up your basic motherly love?" I think many people feel that I have worried my mum, and that it's time to make her happy. I admit I have never made her happy, and worried her endlessly. But let me take this chance to draw a line within these worries.

Some worries come from my actions and lack of maturity towards things. Some comes from a lack of understanding towards the situation which is absolutely forgiveable due to poor communication (Like polytechnic having a system where you have one day off in a week, but she thinks i am playing truant). Some however are more profound. How say? She worries over my cash flow, and my character. Let my explain. Cash flow meaning she will always ask "Melvin you have enough to spend? Should i increase your pocket money? Should I give you some?"

I never take her money ever, not if it's outside of my allowance or necessities. Never in my 20 years of life.

Except once, when I needed to get my meal for that one day when i had 0 dollars, I asked her to give me a dollar so i could get a 60 cents cup of drink from the vending machines in TBSC (Telok Blangah Soka Centre) She was exhilarated, i never seen her as happy as before in this aspect.

Why i do not take? Because i know that she needs to support this family as my father cannot do so alone. I do not take it, not because of pride or achievement. But because i know that it is more fillial, to not do so! And this causes a worry for her. Get my point?

She worries over why I do not allow her to buy me a Piano 2 months before her death. Speaking of which, I regret over not playing beautiful music for her when she's still around. If there's a chance I can meet her somewhere, please give me the opportunity to play for her once more..

Anyways back to the topic. The piano costs 5k. You think I will allow that in that situation? She was going like "Melvin why? Please let mummy support you in your dream ok?" It a mystery how even in her demented state she still remembers me and my dreams, the vow we both made. It was as though she can never forget, and that was of most utmost importance. I think i mentioned this in one of her posts before. In the end I told her to leave things to me and got a keyboard for 1.5k, which created much more values as compared to getting a piano. I knew i made the right choice.

There are limitations to what others and understand about my mum, or fathom about my mum. But as far as i know, nothing beats the bond between mother and son, and nothing beats the connection and understanding between me and her. Even though i cause her pain, i feel that pain. Meaning not i feel pain over her pain, but i feel her (that) pain. Get it? I can feel it in her light. Maybe this is all bullshit theory, but you know, i do. So what's the point really?

I seem to understand more of her actions now. Like why she chose to contribute to my dreams, why she entered my room (hightlighted in one of my older posts) shortly before her passing, why we made that vow,

What am I to her and What i mean to her.

Gosh this statement makes my cry everytime. Do you know the look she gave to me as compared to others in the hospital were different? Do you know she looked at me very clearly with an intense meaning behind those eyes? It was as though i saw beyond her eyes and saw her life, her meanings and intentions, her life. It was very clear what i needed to do from those eyes. In that moment I return to my childhood, when only me and her lived in a simple two room flat, Before all those battles began 10 years ago and things turned out slighted more complicated. Goodness, none of us knew at that time what great mission we had, what great adversities are coming our way, what victorious and exciting lives we were going to lead! HEHAHAHAHA!! *like the laughters generals of war have after a battle*

I wasn't a good son, so the least i could do, is to live and continue her legacy.

I hope this post can make everyone out there see me and my mum in a different light, and understand the life of me and her a tad better. Things aren't as simple as many think it is. *deep breathes and closes eyes*

Mum, I love you.

2009-10-25T20:17:00.000+08:00

2009-08-03T16:48:00.003+08:00

Wow. Busy Busy Busy. This is crazy.. since fyp was over, just busy working, doing attachment. Working, transiting into corporate life, really one helluva ride. It was a journey of self discovery, not that we do not discover ourselves before, but everyday is one step to knowing ourselves dun you think? Mr. Educator in my office, rather Mr. Philosophical, states that 80% of humans do not know themselves. These 80% of people live with what he calls "reactions". cant seem to find a better way to explain other than with an example..

Sometimes we encounter some mistakes or took a wrong turn in life. We end up saying, "shit". According to him, we do not think about saying "shit". We do not go through the process of: "Hey this is a shitty situation, oh lets say something, hmm what should i say? Oh lets say shit!" and you say, "Shit". We do not do that people. and that, according to him, is not knowing ourselves. According to him (maybe it's more justifed to say that some books do state this point as well), knowing ourselves is the sure way to success in life. Well how do you put it? If we know ourselves so well, we basically control our life. If we control our life, we control the future of it. Next time you say "shit" out of plain reaction, think about it and how you could have avoided saying it altogether. Crude theory but well, food for the mind ^^

What a nice opening to my post! Lol.. Hello loyal supporters who read my blog day and night fantasizing about me. =3.. jk.. i am back again, still working (this post was created at my workplace).. and my life these 2 months can be listed out..

1. Work everyday (DAY AND NIGHT)
2. Do homevisits
3. Play games
4. Read harry potter (near the end of attachment)
5. Watch movie at home with my studio equipment to destress (near the end of attachment)
6. Go out with my darling (2 movies, 1 concert, 1 birthday ^^)
7. Practice with Edwin (beginning of attachment)
8. One piano performance

That's pretty much it.. Boring eh? So many things i want to do, so many achievements i want to make, and what can i say? Glad I came to this company. Boring it may be, i have learnt many things. Lets start with the first general thing i learnt. The importance of communication.

For people who know me, i can speak well, i have what it takes to lead people.. And the thing i realized is, that does not mean i can communicate well. I realized that I have been very lucky, to have always been given a chance to speak so far. The same goes for leadership. I have been put into roles all my life, rather than earn it myself. So, the very first problem i have is, communication with my boss. I am a good worker, I do a good job out of everything i do, but i fail in communicating with my boss. That, is something i must learn. Because I have been doing "one to many" communication, my "one to one" skills are either not there, or i haven learnt to be myself when it comes to "one to one".

This got me into a fix, because i fail to tell my boss what i have done. This, plus another issue, which is "Presumption", is quite a deadly mix. In the real world, It is amazing that the truth is actually not the truth, but what people actually presume. I have always believed being a good worker and producing good results are the most important. But however, i was wrong. It is sad at first to stomach the fact that you have to attend to people's perceptions about you. It is survival 101. Dun do that, you'd find yourself a worse man than you actually are. So for a moment, there are many presumptions that i am a downright slacker, listening to music while working, do nothing, hack care attitude, do things half past six. Until, using a full month of "showing-off" (I hate it). I showed them. It may be good to state another thing i learnt: "People assess you in the first 3 secs of contact"

The second problem is, because I have been naturally given leadership roles, I lack to skills to look for contacts myself. One big word to put forth, "Networking". My loner working attitude has got me into trouble with both aspects, even more so in the latter. I learnt something from Mr. Philosophy. The 6 level/step networking rule/law. It basically means that the person/resource you need is just maximum 6 people away. That is one of the secret to success, networking. keep networking as much, and one day you might receive the call to success. That's what it means in a nutshell. Something out of a bell curve theory without understanding the theory of it.

That's pretty much two things i learnt corporate-ly. Another thing not so corporate-ish is punctuality, because of the fact that it doesnt apply to onli working life. I have this problem with punctuality, as you might see from my previous posts. So i got into a little bit of trouble my first two weeks in office. For this i just have one advice, "Victory starts in the morning!" Nuff said. ^^

2009-05-30T12:11:00.005+08:00

Hi FYP friends! Welcome to my blog! ^^ first off lets just say the vid below is now the gift i made for you people.. the gift is finished, and its going through encoding now.. no use keeping the cat in the bag,

the gift is a song composed by all of us! you guys wrote the lyrics and i made the music. HAHA our very own song now how cool is that! i am sorry but i forgot to consider the encoding time to be included.. so you may have to wait till tonight b4 its uploaded.. sori =/ but stick around as you will not regret it.. though my recorded voice is VERY regretful.. (argh i sound bad recorded, do better live though ;) ) look what have your messages for fyp turn up to be! ^^ have a great day and come back tonight!

thanks you ^^ -ponyo

2009-05-24T01:19:00.004+08:00

2009-03-11T14:57:00.008+08:00

1. CNY!!
2. Encounter with Sam Ee
3. Mother's Video interview
4. Julian the aftermath..
5. MCML video
6. Auntie Incident
7. Countdown to Wed (c#)
8. 2 Music Medley
9. Polo shirt
10. Mum's thief, grandma cry outs and falls in toilet
11. Father's debts
12. Mum's Death
13. FYP

As you guys all know, my mother passed away on the 13th Feb. Perhaps it is best to include her at the start as respect. Hmm.. ^^ Nothing much to be said. More importantly, this blog is going to be revived, with some changes! For a start after every post there would be a post from the "Human Revolution" book written by the President of Soka Gakkai. This helps me to read even more. Also i was hoping to do up a music column to consolidate my music so its easier to browse. Deeply appreciative if anyone could offer their IT expertise on this :). Also, my blog will be joinly linked with my mum's blog updated by our comrades in faith. Regarding her history in bits. yep

On my mum's death, the date was strangely..err.. significant? 13th feb 4 or 5 years ago was the day Teck Kiang a senior leader whom my mum and I respect very much paid a visit to my house. As a side note, she battled cancer for 9 coming 10 years. Since the first cancer at the breast, she was strong in faith and knew the significance of transforming one's karma into a mission. A simple explanation for this, karma is the term used in Buddhism (or any other religion for that matter) for causes. Causes meaning anything you think, say or do. In other words, every single moment we are creating karma, be it good or bad. Karma also extends to other lifetimes, a concept only held possible by the phenomenon of "Life after Death", or reincarnation. Always have we heard others mentioning about the misfortune we face in this life is an effect of "karma we incurred from our past life".

That's absolutely true. However, what will you do next is of most vital importance. Do you simply accept the fact and live out your karma? Or do you transform that "misfortune" into an opportunity? One simplest example is that you step on the wave of karma to be stronger. Thus, every misfortune becomes an opportunity to grow and be stronger. Aspiring to be more noble? Transform that karma into a mission! As for my mum, her mission was to inspire millions worldwide of this wonderfully fabulous Nichiren Buddhism! Imagine the thousands of people encouraged over "this women who lived for 9 years after 5 relapses and more than 7 operations and surmounted obstacles after obstacles." She would have brought hope to many to live on! This is the mission I am talking about. Being in a misfortune is a blessing in every way thinkable. This is Buddhahood my friends.

Coming back to Teck Kiang, it is believed that he awakened my mum's true fighting potential. Before that my mum wasnt much that of a fighter who dedicated her life for the encouragement of others. It is also said by many that if we are not finished with whatever we have to do in this lifetime, we wouldnt leave this world. Yea so its something like that.. ^^

lets look at my mum's last words

Yep so that's it about my mum. After her death gotta deal with a lot of things. But some things just happens first. For example, lets talk about how she passed away.. shall we?

It was a morning before the sun risen. Rather, half way risen. my room was lightly illuminated by a glow so bluish that it could onli last 5 min. Any longer, pure sunlight would have taken over. I was woken up by a call so loud and deafening, it cut my sleep by a supposed few hours. The voice over the phone was so familar, it almost meant that something likely had happened. It wasnt likely a good thing, though.

"Where are you? Marcus (mr bro) leh? Daddy home?"

Wth she is talking about? of course they home la. unless it really happened..

Long story short, rush down to marcus to pick him up, went to hospital. But somehow knew that this is the end. There are a million signs that are shown to me through the environment. Heck! She even felt so and tried her best to provide all she can for the past few weeks! Hence my first post, My very first digital piano.. It may seem first that i give up real quick, but trust me for at least 4 years I have been fighting for her. Doing peace activities and taking care of the association, while using prayer to fight for her recovery. Many times we have surmounted relapses, crushing them beneath us. However, I just had the feeling as a son.

9.5 years she fought cancer. Logically it was long enough, miraculously it was long, strictly speaking, she lasted this long undoubtly due to her practice in this buddhism, which made her spirit and will strong because she lived for a mission. I am not starting a debate here however, but we have seen people around the world throughout history who have done miraculous feats by prolonging one's sick life. Some pray earnestly while doing humanitarian work, she was one of them. No one can say for sure how it works, but the fact that she's not the onli one who have been shown actual proof of this practice may seem to make this practice.. more believable i guess. ^^

Anyways, spent a day praying at the hospital, taking care of her oxygen needs. She kept taking her mask off, reason either being uncomfy or she wanted us to pray. At some times when it was too quiet, she would remove her mask to chant two verses of Nam Myoho Renge Kyo, spurring us to continue chanting, before putting back on. Some times she was doing victory signs and doing insane shit like manually pulling out the whole damn drip cord, causing rupture in her wrist. The onli reason i can think of is that in the mind of hers "What is this?! I want to get out! I dun wanna be sick!" I can never forget when i brought up the vow we made towards each other "Didnt you say you would be there when I build Min-On? Didn we promise each other?!" Tears well up in her eyes. That was the onli time she cried, hours before she was gone.

Long story short, I felt like staying over that night. Was doing shift duty with my domestic worker. When it was my shift, i was closing my eyes. My job was to just make sure her mask stays intact. Everything was fine 'cept for this pesky mosquito continuously feeding on my thighs. i tried a few times to find it but didnt manage. After some drifts between slumber land and reality, i forced myself awake to kill it. I found it resting on the curtain neat and steady. Being known as a mosquito exterminator, I killed it with no probs. But since i was awake, i was able to see my mum more clearly. The mask was still on, but her body wasnt bobbing up and down.

She clearly had gone...

So happen the nurse was there to check the drip and i ask her to check. They rolled in a big machine i think it was an ECG machine to check her hearat beat. I was out praying all the while. The nurse came out and told me to prepare clothes and IC, stuff like that. I asked her for specific details. She said there is still heartbeat, but so weak that it can be considered gone in medical fields. Heck with medical field as long as religion is concerned! If chanting have proven to be able to bring back the dead whose mission haven been complete, what so is this? I went to chant into her ear, and saw tears flow out. I can feel "beats" from her. So i just prayed like mad. Anyways, My aunt came in and told me some crazy shit like "be realistic" "face reality" bla you know. I am pretty shocked as to what humans can give up when they deem a situation hopeless. Even if its your kin, I mean she's your sis! shouldn you fight all the way till the end? I dun reali blame them, They hardly believe in miracles, nor do they know the power of prayer.

Long story short i was so disappointed in everyone lack of courage to try to save her life, that I just screamed "YOU SIAO AH!" that was some pretty crazy shit to be doing in a hospital. Oh yea it was 1am too. That's how she passed away, with tensions on our family now. Yea.

Here a video of my Merry Chirstmas Mr. Lawrence take 1. It is filmed when i still have crappy equipment. So it SUCKS just to fill in before i come up with take 2. Yep ^^

Lets move on

Basically, C# nothing much, i just passed that module, for more info on the C# saga refer to my previous posts.. dun reali wanna check whether i reali have or not but in a nutshell was on the verge of failing, in fact considered debarred.. but through determination and effort manage to save my ass.. so it shows that if you are willing to learn from mistakes and right a wrong, things will always change, if only your mentality changes!

On my mum's thief and grandma shoutouts, its basically the last days b4 her death when she's facing dementia and will scream there's a thief outside the door suddenly. yea.. on the grandma incident its basically this: my mum has been admitted to hospital many times for her insane multiple relapses. In one of those admission, probably the last one, she exclaimed "Ma! ma!" meaning my grandmother. coz my grandma went before her, and both are practicing nichiren daishonin buddhism.. the last words my grandma left for my mum in english wud be " prayers should be the basis for everything!"

Yea so last but not least, my dad, err.. used to own credit card companies money, even now there are two outstanding amounts to be paid, one of them i will touch on later, and one of them is another company which he have no idea whether the amount is still there or not, based on possibilities of a write-off..

Like every other adult who pays credit card bills , my dad is one of them who has difficulty paying up.. why? he has poor money management skills bundled with a heck care attitude = trouble my mum always advices him on this "spend within your budget" golden rule/rule of thumb whatever.. so yea, my dad has heavy financial karma.. so, that's pretty much it.. he has a bad temper, lost many jobs due to fight with collegues, but he doesnt drink nor comes home whacking us and brawling.. yep ^^ so basically these lost of jobs made him unable to pay his loans, bills etc..

two incident which are mentionable are the baliffs coming over to our house accompanied by a locksmith.. baliffs are court sent debt collectors who do the same jobs as loan sharks, but without the splash and whack. instead they decorate your house with nifty stickers to indicate that the item is under possession by the government. just think of it as item under mortgage. yea.. some items are my piano, warddrobes, tv, computer... yep.. so situation now? fully paid..no amount left.. yep..

the second is a motorcycle incident.. my dad was the guarantor for someone else's bike, so long story short, person ran away and dad have to pay everything.. now seriously what is this bullshit? to assure themselves of their asses, companies demand a guarantor, so someone has to offer his lifeline to the guillotine just in case that "trustworthy" friend of your runs away. Sounds like some neat insider job.. anyways.. the amount is still unpaid. coz my dad feels that he doesnt even need to pay.. apparently the good thing is that THEY FOUND THE FRIGGIN GUY!!! so why are they still coming after my dad.. wait this isnt part of the deal man, do whatever you want with that guy and leave us alone! >< and my dad is too lazy and unbothered to explain things to them.. so what's his reply when they sms him?

"You want you just come, my door is always open for you"

XD

that's it for now and here is the quote of the post!

Hardships make us strong. Problems give birth to wisdom. Sorrows cultivate compassion. Those who have suffered the most will become the happiest.

I know it's hard to fathom, especially the last sentence will have difficulty coming to terms with. But shed some light on the matter and think about it, undoubtly its very true dun you all think? ^^..

2009-01-29T15:20:00.010+08:00

Wow.. lets see what can i do..my friends recommend me to do daily posting instead of a giant post.. i think it will depend.. coz

big post: more information at once, people who blog surf (those who come once), those dun often visit my blog and those who onli will read the first post of every blog they see they can read more information, e.g spanning a whole month of information..

small post: more frequent visitors will rejoice, however people from the above category will miss out a lot since they onli read the first more recent post.. get what i mean? yea ^^

so anyways i try splitting the information to various days.. i will do a benchmark template for tryouts..for this post we have

1. CNY!!
2. Encounter with Sam Ee
3. Mother's Video interview
4. Julian the aftermath..
5. MCML video
6. Auntie Incident
7. Countdown to Wed (c#)
8. 2 Music Medley (find the last carribean song)
9. Polo shirt
10. Mum's thief, grandma cry outs and falls in toilet
11. Father's debts

Lets start things with a festive mood!

Chinese new year is a celebration for the lunar new year according to the lunar calendar.. so every year singaporeans get to celebrate two new years. It is considered a new year coz yea its reali a new year.. Hari Raya aint coz muslim originated from christianity.. so naturally it follows the roman calendar.. anyways lets dispense with the history and come on down to the party ^^

Day 0: According to customs we have to go back to our father's side of the family tree to eat the reunion dinner.. so the whole day was trying to economise my tummy as i was running 3 places to eat.. first 2 was piggy's side.. the last one was at the restaurant where every year I unwillingly go to.. why? imagine going to the same place twice within an interval of two days every year for the past 6 years, eating exquisite restaurant delicacies. The place i go is Jumbo Seafood Restaurant. Anyway, still had god food and was appreciative towards the money spent.. All in all, went home with a bursting tummy that nv deflated till today..

Dressing:

Day 1: New Year's first day is the worst every year.. there is only three places we go.. 1st to my god parents' house, 2nd to the temple, 3rd is to either macdonalds or Long john silvers. Set running since long time ago.. after that we go home to sleep the whole day and wake up around dinner time to eat normal stuff and well's that's CNY 1st day.. nothing special..

Dressing:

Day 2: Always have been the most looked forward to day and the most not loked forward day.. but when every year is the same and you no longer look forward to seeing your cousins, well.. its nothing much already.. First destination is my mum's side of peps.. well just seeing the usual people, except the fact that i have gotten more vocal since 2 years ago, i initiate things to the shock of many people (in response being regarded as wierd).. well i grow up, i have big dreams.. more on that later.. anyway played bridge with my cousins (a reali cool and fun strategic game to play i learnt from Piano Ensemble)

Bridge the Game Check this wiki link for the numerous strategies involved.. cool! it is the onli legal card game in the world too ^^

after playing bridge we ended up playing black jack with my uncles.. i lost up to $15 at first but i emerged winning $2 in the end.. no bad eh? and my bet nv exceed $1 too.. haha.. had a great buffet there with good recipe for a soup boiled by my aunt.. pork intenstines with bak ku teh spices.. great! =D after eating there have to go to the dreaded place to eat exquisite food.. Yea the second time coming back to the restaurant.. nothing much reali.. piggy joined me on that day.. she came when the last dish was served, and had a mountain of food (constructed by me) on her side of the table.. after which the dinner ended, me and darling went for some alcohol.. i had bad intestines that week so cant drink much..

Dressing:

Day 3: Back to school, supposed to have a quiz that day but well overslept and missed it.. so went out with piggy that day for shopping! was late for fann and christopher movie the wedding game.. but still managed to smuggle pizza from pasta mania in.. ^^ bought polo ralph shirt that day.. went to three places to finally get ours..

Polo shirt:

Dressing:That's it for Chinese New Year! =)

2009-01-23T14:07:00.003+08:00

Alrighty! Back to blogging.. lets see basically life was boring, school life that is, looking at the previous post on things not done, i updated my outstandings sidebar already.. added some stuff and took down some stuff..

Good news: I totally cleared my Thinking and Problem Solving Skills. Clear! Pass! No more debar!

Not-so-good news: Left with OOP quiz (piece of cake coz open book), OOP mini project (teacher lenient give easy one), Aerospace Legislation common test. The challenge now is to score well to maintain my current GPA of 3.2 Yep!

Bad news: No bad news! The bad news is no bad news. As we have a popular saying in our practice that goes,"In life, having no problems is the biggest problem"

So anyway, updates on music. Learnt Aye Caramba already, polishing koko, uploading real soon, left with Vampire Knight opening, Air TV Tori no Uta and Touhou 6 Rank S Extra Stage Last Boss Theme. I can show you two videos for the last two. But since its going to be another long post i think i shall split up a bit.

This is a fan made music video. it features the Air TV Opening 01 (Tori no Uta). I thought a music video would be better as it lets you glimpse the Anime. If you want to find out more you can go check this wiki link.

This week is like nothing to do. Nv go out, just go sch, come back and rot (meaning play piano and PSP) completed Kingdom of Paradise (short game but well =/) I play games to complete them.. shortly put, i am a games completor. I dun play games that

1. no story/plot (usually meaning it doesnt end)
2. the above
3. the above

if you're talking about handhelds, PSP ports of FPS (first person shooters: think Counter Strike) are nonono! i mean wth FPS are meant to play with a mouse and keyboard not buttons.. I cant get why Halo is so popular when it came out of xbox. I mean how you enjoy the experience? ><" Games like fallout 3 targets the opponent automatically. Why games like counterstrike, Team fortress 2 and Left 4 dead dun appear on handhelds? Because these games speak of skills, not Chiong Sua tactics where you suffer damage and instant replenish.

Coming back i am games completor. I play all kinds of games unlike some of my gaming gurus who play RPG like mad and complete them at breakneck speed Side Quests Included (meaning 100% game completion) usually those who play final fantasy la..

I play RTS (but i play the campaign only), action, RPG and puzzles. As long as there's a story and can be completed. So games i will never touch are games like FIFA, Monster Hunter series. I am not biased against sports. I play Shaun White Snowboarding and there are achievements to get, after getting them its considered completed. I completed Need For Speed Undercover too anyways. In the days of sec sch, i play GBA (gameboy advance) games everyday for 2 years. I emulate them on my PC, have lots of games. The same goes for Playstation, also emulated. But i quit the emulation world and go in PC gaming and PSP (aka ISO WORLD YEA BABY *_*)

ok that's all about games. so remember the video you guys earlier on? One piano group in japan made a tribute to this series titled "Reminescences of AIR". Here is the video

I have the score for this btw ^^ very cluttered for sure..

Alrighty next up we have a ranting session. ^^ there is this person i reali dislike, but i am trying to overcome this negativity affecting his character and resulting in my mood being down. I cannot afford to let this person's demons affect me. In fact I should be steadfast and strong to help his overcome his weakness. What's his weakness? He hardly has any manners

lets have a break.. this video is that touhou song techno remixed. by far its the nicest.. and the flavour is there..

The song name is "U.N. Owen was her?" it's the theme for the extra boss, Flandre Scarlet, in the videogame "Touhou Volume 6: Embodiment of Scarlet Devil" The title is based on an Agatha Christie's novel "And Then There Were None", U.N. Owen (Often mistaken as "Unknown" by the characters of the novel) was a man that invited ten people to an island and then enjoyed killing them, much like Flandre does with her victims.

And then someone corrected him "You have a bit of that off - U.N. Owen wasn't "mistaken" as unknown - U.N. Owen was one of the ten guests, and used a pun-based pseudonym to alert them that they were being had. I think the metaphor on the whole is rather poor, as Owen didn't kill the guests out enjoyment, but out of a desire to pass judgment on people who were not punished for their past crimes because they couldn't be convicted in a court of law, as well wanting to create an unsolvable murder mystery."

From this we can see that the game creator had extensive knowledge reaching to english literature. The game creator is a Jap and not onli that, he is the game: programmer, sound producer (composer), graphic designe and director cum producer. The game stretches back to 1996. Since the start, it has been a one and only one man work. Amazing isnt it? In japan this sparked a new trend too, and of course highlight japan superiority in games.

this is the original gameplay music with gameplay

You want to know more? just go to this link Touhou Wiki

Ok back to ranting..I have personally clashed upfront with him. Some time ago i hated his attitude, so one day i wasnt feeling so good already and he starts up again. At that time, he wanted to learn my style of music. This reason makes up most of my guessing. From the start he is a rock singer and pianist, he sings/plays songs from Elton John, Eric Clapton, Green Day stuff like that, both soft and hard rock.

Ever since long time ago, he's been bugging me about my style. But I told him, you should stick to your rock style and music, there's nothing inferior about yours. specialise in it. But i didnt have the heart to tell him he wasnt meant for my genre of music. Even up till now he is still stuck to his rock style when composing instrumentals. and god knows? he is still wondering why mine always sounds nicer than his. Coz you are not confident with your style at all, you lack the believe, you lack bringing out the true nature and power of rock!

There was this very memorable encounter with him. He wanted to discuss business with me. He shared with jon and jon came to ask me. Of course at that time i already told jon about my dreams long time ago and how to go about it. In the end we met up on a fine day. And i did not expect much. My starting point is: i will share with you my direction and dreams, just to share with you. If you feel that it does not coincide, please go on ahead with your original plan, i wouldnt want to be the one to change your plans, coz you would lose out. I wouldn coz i already have my own plans.

Unfortunately in the end it did not work out coz he could not get/understand my ideas. At some points of the discussion, we almost got into a quarrel.. coz i was explaining my disappointment in the world of music nowadays.

This is Touhou Volume 8: Imperishable Night gameplay for final boss. He fast forwards everything except the boss fights. The bosses takes up 80% of the game time.

I always prompt him to change for the better but he doesnt get it so i attituded him..

And yesterday i met him again. he asked me if i finished photocopying.. plus wanna meet up to compose.. ok the composing part didnt have any 0 mannerism outrage.. but his tone still sucked anyways..

Ok thought i would show another video on a Midi transcribed to Piano score sheet on that touhou theme.. it is unplayable due to the clutter of notes on midi.. remember that midi is digitally made..

updates on my mum.. hmm.. her dementia state is getting worse.. yesterday i came home and well.. she just said to me..

"next time when you come out from toilet must wear properly.. because obama is coming to interview me oh...dun just wear towel and come out like that.." even when her best friend called her she repeated the same thing to her over the phone..

a few days ago while the TV was showing obama inauguration,

"Obama called me and invited me on stage to interview me oh"

today i asked her where you going mum

"I going to Keming representing Keming oh" mum you're going to the hospital for your check up..

so what have becomed of her.. reali the same women fighter is slowly no longer there, reduced to a victim of old age.. in buddhism we teach "everyone has to go through the four stages of life : birth, old age, sickness and death. Just like the formation of the universe and planets. Integration, combustion, (can remember the term but is burnt out or something), disintegration. " Amazing how buddhism reali speaks of reason and logic.. everything in this world is linked.. and the process is all the same.. evolution."

that why i dun feel that sad.. because i understand that its part of the process.. after you die, you reborn in other part of the universe to fulfill your purpose and mission.. the karmic cycle goes on.. (read my previous post on karma) as for her, looking at the number of people she transformed, she would be "reborn at eagle's peak beside Shakyamuni and Nichiren as a boddhisattva" she would be watching as i fulfill my dreams.. and that image of "keep moving! keep moving! mother and son keep moving" will forever resonate in my head.. though its just me without her.. i shall continue her legacy of stand alone spirit!

and that obama interview thing makes me feel that it a wake up call to me.. i see things as an opportunity to pick up and start moving, instead of seeing it as a dreadful end that she's a goner. i feel that she dying to share her experience to the world, but she is unable to, that's the message i got as a son. so its up to me to share it with the world as i fulfill my dreams and mission.. I MUST work harder

next post, i will post 1 video, the most important thing in life is to take the first step..

2009-01-16T10:46:00.001+08:00

@ Baato: You're right i blog less frequent for this week.. coz got so many test and project.. but good point coz i can link up with my debarment status.. regarding the volunteership thing.. its more like a mission for world peace.. its a spirit we cultivate in our buddhist practice.. We call it kosen-rufu, otherwise known as the action of propagation of our practice to the world.. of course, non other than to help people find true happiness within themselves by overcoming daily problems. Do visit this link: www.sgi-usa.com. Feel free to type in any keywords in the search bar.. the information is extracted from books our mentor aka president have published..(he's a world class writer with 150 honorary doctorates and professorships from colleges and universities around the world) you could use this link as well Ikeda Profile. ^^

@Sarah: Ooo reali glad you liked it.. hope you look bolder with that =) sure will look good on CNY.. keep up with your music too! Oh yea.. i have bad memory.. so its best i write down what i haven uncovered about my life..yep

so.... MUHAHA (evil laughs first) i am spared from debarment.. lets see.. busy week, some days not important.. virtually slacking.. but all in all lets list the things i have and done..

Object Orientated Programming (C#) Missed the test on wed
Prepare and take care of PE on wed till president's return Done
Finish up Lancome Monthly Report (my part time job) Done
Presentation of Thinking and Problem Solving Skills on thurs Done
Class Test for my 3rd and last module Aircraft Legislation on wed Done
Complete Crazy Taxi 1 and Spiderman Web of Shadows Done
Get back Ryuichi Sakamoto Piano Solo book from Jonathan on fri Done
Catch Transporter 3 on fri Done
Negotiate with OOP teacher for missed test on wed and reschedule Done
Download AVG for anyone who needs it Done
Pass Jonathan AVG and Need For Speed Cd Key Not Done
Finish up Lancome Monthly Report (my part time job) Done
Learn the piece Aye Caramba and Opening for Vampire Knight on my digital piano Not Done (played by ear of course)
Retest for OOP Not Done
Photocopy the Piano Solo book Not Done

The misc stuff dun nid special mention, but lets talk about my modules first.. since i so eagerly blogged about my outstandings why not clear one of my outstandings? Lets talk about my "misfortune".

But not before a break time with my uploaded video on youtube feat NYPPE concert 2008, with me performing Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence

Alright! Entered NYP after graduation in 2006, tried to enter a JC but cannot. coz my L1R5 is 23. I guess there's a reason for everything.. but i did not once regret coming to Poly, (maybe it was for PE) and did not regret trying out for JC either.. it was to meet my personal mentor/leader, who gave me a wake up call in life regarding my mum.. I wasnt serious about anything until i met him. Became a hot head target driven person with insane dreams since then.. >< style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">class AA. happy happy meet frens bla bla, mug for test, scored well for every test EXCEPT for one.. Communication skills 1. What happened? Was at home shitting my ass away, when i have this instinct that today for a test. While on the bowl called my fren to confirm..

"Hey when the comm skills exam ah?"
"Today lo"
"What time ah?"
"Over liao lo! You not here meh?"
"Wth no la.. shit!"

Gg.. tried to fake MC for retest doc dun give. So, missing that test was equilvalent to missing 40% straight.. GG. Verdict? 4 As with an F (and 1 B and B+). GPA 3.4, relocated to another class, because in NYP i not sure about other polys, when you fail one module, you are the outstanding one with outstanding modules, you poly life is pretty much fished up.. yea.. cant get to go back to my old class anymore.. not to say but i didnt regret leaving that competitive class anyway (its the top class in my course).. though it was my fault for not recording and being independent, but at least they could have did what my class A6 ppl have done? Like start calling friends who are not present at starting of test? its like friendship la.. i dunno, that's what i feel.

My new class is my poly 2nd family, PE is my 1st.. nurtured good friendship over the years now that going to year 4 soon, because of outstanding modules.. Sticked to the people for some semesters with semesters having odd classes like class AJ and class A6 (year 1). Oh yea, we outstanders have the privilege of choosing our modules and classes EVERY sem, that's a good thing.. people who dun fail? they cant choose but they can relocate though.. MUHAHA..

Break time! Watched Transporter 3 yesterday, didnt watch 1 nor 2 but found that its a nice show! Action babe (pig in malay) haha.. catch the video here for the intense sense i loved the most

So the system is about pushing back, so i fail 1 in yr 1 sem 1, yr 1 sem 2 i would have to give up one module to take that failed module and make up for it in yr 2 sem 1. Truthfully, i failed only 1 module in my entire poly life. Logically i would onli have 1 module outstanding. The perks? ability to take my outstanding module with my attachment cum fyp in year 3 sem 2 and graduating at the same time with my peers the normal way. It doesnt make sense that i have 3 outstanding modules and lose the perks (otherwise meaning having to say for 1/2 a year, taking 3 modules with 11 hours a week only) i wonder if i broke the poly record for having the least hours per week for a student..

But how??? how come logic fails me? well, after i failed my module, being a sophomore, i was not aware we have to register our modules ourselves and was late for it.

Blame NYP for printing "You are scheduled for module registration from ___-___" in font size 8 somewhere in your results slip.

Blame myself for being blind.

Blame that lecturer for "helping" me to register and forgetting (I CONFIRM + CHOP IS FORGET) to include my Complementary Studies (its comprises of modules you have to take every sem for 2 years, or we will call it the languages module coz those german french japanese modules are found here). Thus in Year 1 sem 2, i have two outstanding modules "magically". A 'complementary studies' and 'Comm skills 1'. Shouldn be the case right? How about the 3rd? Being smart now i register every sem until the pop up says "you have ran out of hours" means you have reached the maximum number modules you can take. Still cannot, one module is left out haphazardly in one of those semesters.

Tadah! The whole poly saga is this, some questions might be "why you nv confront that lecturer?" Coz I nv thought that it could have such an impact. "are you sure lecturers are that evil or dumb for that matter?" Yes. One such example from my friend is 1. He was on time for registration. 2. He happily printed out his time table with the classes he chose himself. 3. Attended first day of sch, went to class, found out he doesnt exist. 4. Went to lecturer to verify, lecturer admittedly says that he changed his timetable and classes on his behalf because he thinks that the class he chose would benefit him.

Fairness vs Good Will. You decide

There's one more i know but i forget though.. but bring this matter up to anyone in NYP who failed modules, they have a story to tell.. anyways i didnt regret either, coz in this super free half year i can do lots of things like discovering my mission and doing my last bit for PE (passing down my knowledge). As the Vice President i did not have the chance to do it, now being the ex VP i can haha..

So that's done, now lets go on to others. I decide to make this a long post coz i owe many days..

just Realised that i know so much about Ryuichi Sakamoto but i haven wiki-ed him yet.. so one day went to wiki him and viola! found out that i knew little of him and him biography! Pls visit Ryuichi Sakamoto for lots of details.. anyways the point is regarding that piano solo book. I always say i respect the composer, so even though i try hard to protect that book, i dun photocopy despite Edwin's advice. Coz being the musician he is, he has tons of genuine books at home which are costly (according to him he has "that" Disney score book worth $169.90 .. i believe that the worth is somewhere there but its a grey area as to whether he has it or not). coz the book is protected by copyright laws. But i quote from wikipedia, "He is also known as a critic of copyright law, arguing that it is antiquated in the information age."

Who? Ryuichi. So? Err think harder..Result? Elated..

Oh and i found that nokia phone in which the ringtones are composed by him.. just watch this video. look out at 1:10

2009-01-12T12:37:00.001+08:00

Sat went out to bugis street! wow i hate bugis street.. its full of people and squeeze squeeze squeeze! lol.. makes me pek cek.. but well.. at least i got my Fox shirt there.. its very nice! goes well with my blazer too.. ^^

i got a sunglasses too.. since my dad broke my sunglasses without telling me.. lol! that was a long time ago..
it was a fun day.. shopped till quite late and drank some alcohol before heading home.. got this bottle opener! comes with every barcadi.. =)

thought i may want to do the Herbie Hancock post now..

Alright Herbie Hancock is a jazz legend.. to date, he's rated:

Musician of the Year 2008 at the Jazz Journalists Award
17 Grammy Awards

He's born in the 1940s raised by a hardworking father and a strong-willed mother and grew up to be one of the best jazz musicians in modern times..

Surprisingly, music was able to make him stop crying. His parents bought him a used piano and he practiced dedicately, winning a contest at age 11, finally being selected to play a Mozart piano concerto with the Chicago Symphony Orchestra. Then his journey began..
Not surprisingly with him as a post, his first encounter with Nichiren Daishonin Buddhism was when he was performing with jazz bassist Buster Williams. Buster William was able to produce a soulful sound with his acousic bass despite the nature of the instrument being mellow.. Herbie began to wonder how Buster was able to play such such wonderful music.. In fact Buster has just started practicing Nichiren Buddhism.. Herbie was drawn to Buster's sharing of the profund yet accessible Buddhist philosophy.. He realized he couldnt find what he was looking from outside himself, rather it was there inside him, all he had to do was to tap into the door of his life

A year after his revelation, he formed a new group which rocked the music world with its fusion of jazz and funk.. Critics and jazz purists accused him of squandering his talent, the band was widely received and was a huge success! He began to explore, fuse and refine new and innovative jazz styles by combining conventional techniques with synthesizers and other devices.. at the same time experimenting with different genres.

He's always challenging his personal obstacles as well as the walls of musical convention. He always revolutionizing music. To keep up with him is to be in the vanguard of music he composed scores for films, television as well as advertising jingles.
Creativity is a desperate struggle to go beyond what we were yesterday. Its a battle against resting on our laurels and the fear of losing what we have. It is an adventure into unknown territory

"If creativity is the most important component of jazz, Herbie Hancock is the epitome of the jazz artist." Crtitics who once denounced his music as a betrayal of jazz are now hailing it as the genre's essence. Herbie has won. He comes from the orthodox school of jazz but his work is also revolutionary. He has truly transversed the road of kings.
What's his source of inspiration? Herbie said to President Ikeda of the SSA "In my experience, the only way to release my inner creativity is to continuously go back to the Gohonzon and chant daimoku. There is no other way. I firmly believe this."

He declared in 1987 after winning an oscar, "I used to think that music brought people happiness, that it had the power to change people's hearts. But now i know that personal growth is the source for creating better and deeper music. I will continue to do my best to contribute to the development of music while polishing the spirit to earnestly seek what it is to be truly human." It was a declaration of humanism for the music world.

2009-01-09T20:34:00.004+08:00

Enjoyed the last post? Hehe.. (just rmbed i haven uploaded any personal music videos yet =.=")

Anyways.. on Thursday! Morning went for 8am lessons despite being late.. i reached at 9am.. and i was looking for the classroom where the lesson is but the teacher is different! Shit.. but thankfully i saw my group member who shed a light on my mystery.. the teacher ended classes in 20 min.. but it was a blessing to meet him.. coz he counted the methods and means of passing.. after counting together, we figured that i would have to come on time (8am) for lessons for the next two weeks' thursday.. that's the onli way to passing on the mark. Good luck to myself and more prayers.. if this goes well, all my almost debarred modules will be saved and i can pass my modules to graduate!! YEA BABY!! must be due to me having this renewed sense of mission.. Louis my Student Division chief mentioned to me b4 "When you awaken to your mission, everything in your life will change"

After that i went home.. slept, posted some stuf on my blog, and went out again for secondary school choir auditions.. went to help out, saw all the cute kids from sec 1, took the boys, asked them to sing "Do Re Mi" in pitch from D to C', the highlight was a a school tour around by our ex teacher Mr Quek! The tour includes me and my old choir mates.. =) The school really changed a lot.. but time nv ceases to move so we should keep moving too!

That's the end of thursday.. on Friday,

Went for the first time in my life, facial with piggy! wow its a 3 hours long process and lotsa stuff were applied on my face.. just closed my eyes and listened to the new age music playing in the background.. getting some inspiration from it.. guess what? it was just 58 dollars for one treatment as opposed to 120+! glad for piggy to have gotten such a deal.. anyways.. my face is gleaming now.. ^^ piggy always says my face is CMI so pulls me in.. Thanks to you dear .. kiss kiss~ their services comes with ginger tea after the treatment.. real nice..

today seems a good day so i called my god-parents (they always buy new year clothes for us) and made the arrangements down.. btw, my god-parents are real.. gone thru a ceremony one ok? got some thing like a heirloom passed to us de hor.. =) wow.. cool.. they were once my nanny's family btw.. nanny upgrade to god ma.. =) my childhood is so exciting.. nonetheless, it was my god parents who brought me and my mum into this practice.. in term of gratitude, we owe them a lot!

Ok ok.. time to phase out of words into pictures!

This is the jacket/blazer i got! my first blazer.. i think its a nice addition to my warddrobe.. especially when its swarming with long sleeves. =) $95 The Red Tab.. Yes it my 2nd Levi's =) Straight cut and bronze threading.. got it for $81.. ^^

Shirts not yet coz i buying with my piggy =) anyways.. if you are wondering why dun i wear and pose? coz......lets wait for new year.. for the handsome me.. xD muHAHA

that's all folks.. i am thinking i should dedicate a post one fine free day to my outstanding postings.. lol..

2009-01-08T23:53:00.004+08:00

I cannot help but must blog about my souvenirs from hong kong bought by my dearest piggy.. coz my heart cannot get by.. =/ and i feel i am getting feelingless.. my buddhist practice teaches about gratitude.

"Gratitude is one of the most profound feelings that we can experience. We extend our kindness to another person who in turn responds with sincerity and appreciation. Such reciprocity, unlike in a commercial transaction, is free and spontaneous."

One Chinese legend of Mao Pao and the white turtle illustrates this point. One day Mao Pao sees a fisherman about to kill a white turtle. He takes pity on the turtle and gives his own clothes to the fisherman in exchange for the turtle. Years later the turtle saves Mao Pao’s life by ferrying him across the Yangtze River away from pursuing enemies.

The Daishonin states: "If even lowly creatures know enough to do this, then how much more should human beings!" (WND, 690). The gratitude shown by animals in those talks reminds us of how easily we can overlook this very virtue that makes us human.

I feel that i am lacking that now.. that's why i cannot treasure those gifts.. these are great gifts as you can see below..

There are 4 gifts in all! and is like even though my darling first time bought an electronic item for me (you know boys love electronic stuffs), but i am happy but not grateful.. i feel that i lack something.. Its a Sennheiser CX300 noise cancelation earpiece! Wow i suppose its reali expensive yea? next to it is the plushie of my dear herself! we named her yoyo.. and she has an exact plushie but blue in colour.. we named him ponpon.. put them together? PONYO! HAHA xD the shirt below is the first vintage shirt my dear bought for me.. so many firsts yet...i dun understand.. haiz..this gift as you can see touched me..its a musical frame.. my first musical item from piggy! Its custom made, with a slot for photo on the left, and a musical mechanism glue behind it.. the knob as you can see is above the guy.. the words read "A pig & A log, Play together on the Springfield land! " LOL simpsons.. haha.. oh yea.. the chime which plays is from "My neighbour Totoro"! Studio Ghibli yet again wow.. wonder how she got that? watch the video here for the jingle!

oh yea and if you're wondering where did Springfield come between us, watch this

hehe that's all.. i just wanted to make a quick one otherwise cannot slp.. good nights all.. =) Happy Lunar New Year TOO!

2009-01-08T13:59:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. since my last post, it was a monday.. so just to update again..

tuesday back to sch again.. was late for morning lessons and according to what my classmates told me, the whole class was waiting for me.. hehe ^^" but some jokers drag on.. and my group leader is >< type.. die die must first to go.. in the end nv got to present..become wed present haha..

after that 12 to 2 went to find my gay partner CL.. yes i am gay.. gay as in happy jovial etc.. so when i say he's my gay partner, means i am more happy with him than with others.. seriously.. like close friends la.. yea.. went to eat and talk about his failed relationship..went to computer lab to discuss some stuff.. very soon it was 2 already.. then i went back to class, bo liao for 1 hr, before going to piano room to show off my new sakamoto solo score book.. told them i could not saty as i going out with piggy!! =)

went to eat cafe cartel with piggy ^^ i ate student meal spaghetti and she ate her favourite pan fried marcoroni haha! its marcoroni with malay mee goreng sauce =) apparently this dish got into the top 100 best foods of 200X.. alongside many of its dishes too.. for those who have nv tried cafe cartel, and loves baggette (that french long bread thingy), try it as it has free flow bread for you! yea.. after that sent her off for her work (tuition) and i went home.. Djmax on transport home, including to and fro from sch, maxed a lot of songs.. =) alighted from 963 and saw my bro playing basketball.. joined him and went home.. end of day.. slept early that day because wed have 8am school.. oh yea and finished reading "bitter virgin" short sweet 32 chapter touching romance love manga.. =) that reminds me gotta share this story with piggy! =)

Wed: woke early for computer programming.. was late BUT managed to clock attendance!! =) hehe so happy seemed to have got into the teacher's good books.. =) SPARRED FROM DEBARMENT!! muhaha.. spent 3 more hours in that lesson including lecture.. after lunch went for presentation.. presentation kena shot by ultimatum-perfectionist-lecturer.. nobody likes him.. but he's funnie and cork.. reali cork.. full of bullshit.. too many cannot remember..

finally done for that stupid module's presentation.. oh yea also had a test.. during the test we were just copying la..hack care the teacher because the teacher like also hack care... ask us dunno choose the longest answer.. or circle D when there's only A B or C. lol! done done.. happy happy

went to teach piano later.. angelo the present music head came today! he always MIA coz got attachment.. glad that he could finally dedicate his time to PE. he printed some nice chord sheets and i used it to coincide with my lessons.. since he's back i dun have to teach anymore!! Yuhoo!! =) but still kinda sad coz it reminds me i gtg soon.. anyway.. i graduated from PE after concert in NOV already.. just had to keep teaching coz they have no knowledge to pass down.. if dun teach advanced class then what can they do when the new batch comes in? yea.. done for the day, went home to hav dinner

got prayers and raj, one of my comrade came down.. with some of my mum's friends.. had a prayer followed by dialogue.. dialogue is the most important part.. coz it bridges people and form connections.. if everyone had dialogues with each other world peace could be attained too.. imagine bush with osama can sit down and talk.. lol impossible but think of the outcome.. shared with them my dreams and mission.. before resting for the night.

My mum learnt that day that i nv completed my music studies of grade 8 coz i failed.. i will blog about my music together with my education in the next post i promise =) she told me to complete my studies.. but my direction isnt there i feel.. just dun have the feeling.. and i would have to relearn everything.. =( lol coz syllabus change.. but i promised her to think about it yea..

2009-01-05T02:36:00.007+08:00

Wow if i nv gonna start blogging about my resolutions i would probably be too late lol.. haha ^^"

Anyways, I am gonna lump my resolutions together with my meeting with General Director. For a start, at the end of the chat after a considered long 1.15 hrs, my proposal was still not given the immediate green light. I expected it, coz my dream and the mission is rather big seriously =.=. I fully understand GD’s circumstance that he cannot simply say things anyhow, coz he holds the highest position in our association locally. Besides, I felt more encouraged thru the different turn out anyways so what’s there to complain haha. Like I mentioned before, thru experiences the organization learnt, GD have set certain guidelines for Arts and Culture.

1. The people coming in must have the correct mindset, learning the instrument is not for personal gain nor self glorification. In fact, it’s to return music to the people. “Music came from the people, irregardless of whether we are poor, or rich. We all write music, and thus everyone should have the privilege of enjoying music. Music should be made affordable to the public.” This is one of Min’on’s philosophy.

I am gonna say now that if the SPG is going to be set up, it would have only one goal, one mission, “To be the forerunners of peace”. Actually I am also in the state of confusion. I haven been reali praying sincerely for long. To tell the truth, the bold statement used to be “To set up a Min-On in Singapore” However, today at GD gongyo, I have met the man himself who have been composing all the association’s songs, and we had a dialogue in which we have certain matching frequencies. He recruited me into his team, and basically what I would be doing is to write more Gakkai songs, translate certain songs into scores for band, choir etc, be involved in overseas exchanges cum performances.

If I go in his direction, I suppose it would be very different from setting up Min-On and SPG? Where supposedly I original intention was to set up SPG, recruit youths who must share the common ideology and mission, teach them music from not what I learnt in school but what I learnt myself. I still rmb GD words, you have to start somewhere first and make your presence known to the association first, and that was why I performed at Sunday’s morning gongyo where GD invited me. I felt kinda like Eminem from 8 Mile. Hehe.

“You better lose yourself in the music, the moment

You own it, you better never let it go

You have only got one shot, do not miss your chance to blow

This opportunity comes once in a lifetime”

Anyways, now to take a break and go for Piggy time ^^. Today went out for the first time in a long time, visited the new “Singapore Largest Sub-Urban Mall” which is Jurong Point. Watched Ponyo on the Cliff by the Sea. KAWAII DESU NE !!!! ^^ “Ponyo! Sosuke! Daisuki~”

Somewhere down we had a little tiff of how I seemed to be not interested in shopping lol. It was reali just about me not walking into shops on my own. But seriously how does keep being pulled into a shop by Piggy necessarily mean I am not interested to shop lol? Her point was about the initiative I lack. Not a small problem la.. in the midst of solving I found something that Piggy reali REALI REALI likes.. its cherades! Pictionary but acting instead of drawing. She loves it so much she can smile out of any situation. =D Haha.. It would be my tool in the future (‘ * , ) ß a twinkle in the eye.. MUHAHA!!

So back to the topic at hand.

Why did I mention the forerunners of peace? I meant to be strict with myself and the SPG. The SPG will not only doing performances for the members wherever event arises like Youth Peace Culture Festival, or any home ground small events. The SPG has a greater underlying mission, to set up Min-On. To directly use music to achieve world peace on a world scale. I used to be in junior choir, and sometimes I think to myself I attend training every Sunday, but I never felt reali good. Maybe it was the early hours, maybe I had very high expectations, or maybe I am simply missing the point.

However, the association teaches, “never belittle every single effort, no matter how small or insignificant the performance may be, for every step we take, are one step closer to world peace, if everyone takes a step, we would have taken a leap towards attaining world peace.”

I am in a dilemma. Shit.. ><

Hey unknowingly I accomplished what I planned to blog in this post! Haha =) So now you people finally know what my dreams and mission is, though when you know more about my education, the people I encountered and learnt from, the club I used to head, and my philosophy. Everything will come into place, about how this little boy who had a talent, and evolved into something reali reali big.

2009-01-03T05:00:00.004+08:00

Wow the last post was still too lengthy.. but its video galore for you ppl ^^ anyways lets just finish up the last bit of ryuichi..but before that i shall post today's happenings first.

Got to see Mr Ong today, was about to be late so took a taxi down. I live in Bukit Batok and my appointment with with him was in Tampines St 81. So it was a West to East trip. Had a hearty chat, full of guidances and encouragement, though got a bit emotional and began to drop tears, but i can for sure say that i felt more invigorated even though the outcome wasnt as expected. Thank you Mr Ong! who is the general director of SSA anyways =)

oh ya my piano is staying put. The "Soka Piano Group" may not be up as early as expected due to some organisation issues, which brings about some facts known today to me. Very disappointing, but clearly, such people do exist. It is nothing more than the "Three devils and Four Obstacles" The expression given above is a representation of not real walking devils nor demons, but the negativity which exists everywhere, who never fails to attack whoever weak in faith. Our practice regards such attacks as chances to strengthen our faith even more in order to grow higher and stronger. The analogy can be said to liken a child repeated standing up after falling down.. Simple reali =)

oh ya and today my mum call me to her room for a little chat, asked me what am i doing (which is rare) and asks me to accompany her coz she's bored. I was about to view the situation as a manifestation of her half senile side when she's started to say things with rememberence.. Very very glad =) anyways i am regretful of myself for not knowing the fact she has Serious water retention problems. Well she has puffy cheeks and neck and chin. but her feet looked like models cast out of plasticine. very heart wrenching, not to mention if you apply a decent amount of pressure, the dent actually retains itself. Meaning there's a concave area which used to be your finger.

Anyways, she suddenly blurted out, "what to do melvin? what to do?" I told her "keep moving forward! Keep walking (though she's on wheelchair)! Dun Worry about what to do! just keep Moving!"

She stretched her hand out to palm my palm against hers. and with each push, she said "move forward! move forward! Mu zi liang yi qi (mother and son together)" This went on for 10+ times, with the effort it takes to say one phrase equivalent to the conviction she has. Seemingly, her frail arms and hands felt like it came from the most motivational source i would ever find.

Now lets enjoy some Sakamoto stuff shall we ^^?

praises for the man:

"He always goes right to the soul"

"I know he is gifted. But how can he keep making this good music? He is just awesome. This is Sakamoto magic."

"The genius lies in the emotional intensity that he draws from a seemingly simple score."

"if u think about it, the melody is actually quite simple, but the amount of emotion he puts in it while playing makes it just amazingly beautiful."

"Ryuichi Sakamoto is a sudden Genius. He is truly a work of a miracle!"

"The most amazing thing about his music is that it makes me think deeply or just relax very easily wihtout any troubles. Ryuichi Sakamoto is just the only amazing pianist who can epress emotions so well with their music."

'To me, Ryuichi Sakamoto is not afraid of attempts of creating rhythms, harmony, and flow of the music. His works, experiments are just simply amazing. The most amazing thing about his music is that it makes me think about what drove him to write this song."

"one of the most exquisite performers of our time ... if you see him perform live, you are truly blessed."

"Masterful. One of the best composer of the world. Long live, Mr. Sakamoto."

"his music has been an important thread in my life since early 80's and for this i am very grateful."

and to think all these just came from one video from youtube titled "koko"

^^ do watch the video if you havent

so you have heard his music! you have heard his accomplishments! how about, his biography?

If you're lazy to read, basically its all bout his history.. but the important point is, he fuses different cultures into a single piece of music, and its all evident from all the music he has. In other words, he's working for world peace too. why too? because so am I, and my mum, and the rest of my fellow comrades in the organisation.

The reason i am attracted to him is because personally i am a musician (i am going to upload videos of myself next). and being in this organisation with my family practicing together, i have developed a stronger sense of purpose for my music.

"For what purpose does one practice/learn music?"

being in the same family, buddhism teaches we share the same karmic relationship. Meaning before we were all born, four of us (me , my bro and my parents) including my domestic helper, were slated to born together at this time. in other words, there's a reason. Why does my mum have this illness? Why does my father have money obstacles? over these months and upon receiving my digital piano, i have thought about this.

The conclusion is, my mum fell sick for the bigger purpose. People in our association knows the basic practice of transforming one's karma into a mission for kosen-rufu.

Mum cancer sickness (karma) -> Recovery -> Inspiration for millions world wide

karma can be divided largly into two sections, bad and good. Good deeds you do will be kept as good karma. Whereas bad deeds you do will be kept as bad karma. Simple? actually it is. Its also good to bear in mind that karma can also be brought forth from our past lives. and the eternity of life is dependent on the karmic cycle.

Nichiren Buddhism teaches us how to lessen our karmic retribution by chanting Nam-myoho-renge-kyo as a universal practice to enable people to manifest the Buddhahood inherent in their lives and gain the strength and wisdom to challenge and overcome any adverse circumstances. Nichiren saw the Lotus Sutra as a vehicle for people's empowerment--stressing that everyone can attain enlightenment and enjoy happiness while they are alive.

Not too much for now or it would be too heavy lol..

so back to my mum, the bigger purpose was for everyone in the family, not only herself to show actual proof to the members and the world, but to be my starting point for my dreams and mission. On this area would be a separate post though. and not Only for me, for my brother, for my father, and even for my domestic helper.

Alrighty i am done on Mr. Sakamoto as my mentor in music. Hope you guys can enjoy his music whilst here.. ^^

2009-01-02T03:00:00.007+08:00

The new year.. supposed to be a long post but on the contrary, all my posts are long! so i am gonna do small parts for this post, no use blogging a big chunk when people just read what's going on recently.. doh ><

so lets start with a picture of my new year present.. reali am sorry dear mistaken the roman calender with the lunar calender.. dun angry with me ok? i play nice songs for you? its not i dun listen to you de.. =( finally my dreams of playing my favorite composer's (RYUICHI SAKAMOTO!! =O) compositions since sec 2 are fulfilled, though not exactly all the songs as you can see from below, its still something great! EH! MAI SIAO SIAO OK? ITS $60 SGD HOR! its not copier paper ok? all the pages are PHOTOGRAPHIC PAPER!! WOOTS!!
oh ya just in case it isnt obvious enuf, its made in Japan, shipped from Japan and written in Japanese.. the latter sucks. cant play Tong Poo properly, dunno what they talking ><. Ryuichi Sakamoto... who's this fag? first of all,

He's Not A Fag

why? 1. his name is ryuichi and it literally means 1 dragon. that's neat.
2. the songs he writes are unique and beautiful.
3. he's an underdog.. i have utmost respect for underdogs, because they are everywhere,
but nv seen.
4. People want to marry just his hairstyle.. (read youtuber comments) even me too ^^

i should start from the 3rd point. what do i mean? the picture above is reali blur so i shall type out in the name of him!! of course for the sake of you guys la =.=

Dawn of Mana: A PS2 game, he composed the theme
Saven Samurai: Another PS2 game, and the ending theme (a game composer)

Asience-Fast Piano: Ever noticed this shampoo which goes by the brand Asience? that asian formula thingy? Yea he composed the advertisement theme. the one before utada hikaru took over. check it out here if it's familar.. (advertisement composer)

+33: Composed for that branded bag which girls love? Louis Vuitton 150th anniversary theme song

Koko: Composed for JP日本郵政グループ 20th anniversary

dancing in the sky: Composed for JP (cant find the text) 55th anniversary (special occasion composer)

Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence: Just hear the song from the Imeem playlist above, i am sure you will find it familar..

The Last Emperor: The Last Emperor of China's Dynasty, its a film about the falling of the last emperor who was not older than a 10 year old kid.. sounds familar?

Rain: A theme from The Last Emperor

Lost Theme: From Femme Fatale

Shining Boy & Little Randy: A story about a boy and his elephant

SILK endroll: From the movie Silk

Solitude Theme: From some movie (film composer)

Theme for Roningai: A musical which translates to Wanderer Street (musicale composer)

Riot In Lagos: Techno + Funk

Thousand Knives: Electro + Jazz + Oriental

Tong Poo: Chinese jingle + japanese jingle + fast broadway (just thinking these derserves some credit)

the original

as quoted from a youtuber, "It's called experimental improvisation. I loved the dissonance. "

2008-12-30T03:16:00.004+08:00

Went to watch a movie alone today.. piggy not in SG, she's somewhere in hong kong waiting to get butchered xD then i will pop in and save the day muhaha =O. lol ^^"

Enjoyed a foot long "cold cut trio" sandwich from Subway while watching Ip Man due to Leo's advice (actually he didnt reali advice me, it was just on his nick). Almost did not buy Subway due to not having a bag to smuggle in. before i left home i was thinking i missed something, but simply cannot rmb what was it, until.... i pass the bubble tea shop and oh yes, how to bring in? oh shit forgot to bring bag. die.. no more subway in cinema..

but then again, i had two velcro pockets situated at the thigh area (sounds wrong). quick-thinking-me decided to split the foot long sandwich into 2 and stuff em in both pockets. Mission accomplished =)! bought the ticket at 4.35 despite the movie being at 4.20. amazing!

The movie wasnt exactly mind blowing, you want complicated action moves with solid storyline, watch Huo Yuan Jia. Of course Ip Man is with no twist nor turn and everything was predictable. But who cares, the movie taught me about this Wing Chun thingy and it is reali similar to the style i developed myself, not to say i am a kung fu practitioner but last time am so bored i decided to dance with kung fu.. if you know what i mean =.=.

anyways you can check out this useful link for Wing Chun ;) :
Phoenix Wing Chun school (the original generation linkage to Ip Man)

After the movie came back and began generaling again,
Battle Statistics: 1 vs 1 landon (LOST)
2 vs 2 AI with landon (LOST)
3 vs 4 AI with jon and jos (WON)
2 vs 4 AI with jos (WON) but mismatched
3 vs 4 AI with merv and jos (WON)

While generaling my almost senile mum worked up her imaginery galactic appetite again. began eating tapioca chips non stop and "thinks" they are healthy. Oh gosh tapioca chips are fattening and heaty mum! then soon after she asks for more chips. and my dad says it alright to give her more..

IS LIKE CANT YOU FATHOM THE SITUATION OF YOUR WIFE?? WHY DO YOU GIVE HER THOSE CHIPS WHEN SHE ASKS FOR IT??

was so angry at my dad for not understanding and taking care of my mum. One word "Granted".
he takes for granted that my mum is still the strong healthy kosen-rufu fighting superwoman champion. UNFORTUNATELY folks, she's aint anymore. Her spirit is there, her desire to fulfill her mission is there BUT, she cannot response normally anymore, and it ISNT speech deficiency. meaning, i said it above.

oh btw kosen-rufu is the act of sharing this wonderful buddhist philosophy to the world.

In regard to my dad, buddhism teaches, "benevolence" , he doesnt understand yet so cannot be blame but must be taught. i cannot throw myself into the world of anger, i must remain a buddha, act like a buddha. Wisdom is the key my friends.

Quote "Not onli i deserve to be happy, i must be happy. Onli then can i share this propagate this wonderful teaching."

2008-12-29T01:46:00.007+08:00

my gf dun gimme my christmas pics! so i gotta make use of some old pic where it shows me wearing my christmas attire. before i continue, let me just say SCREW HTML. Much of my post was replace with a killer code of font bla bold bla. Saw that and thought: Shit.

Day 1: Went to watch the box office hit "Yes Man". Damn funnie! xD "ask me if i would like to throw this rock at the bank" "would you like to throw this rock at the bank" "Yes I would!" (Shoosh and the glass came down)

Day 2: Santa's trial. Meeting piggy after her caroling at the pines. Piggy is the nick i gave my darling btw. Huh? What? Me? Nah my nick isnt that stupid... it's..........................."Loggy"............................ =.= arent we cute? XD anyway took a cab down carrying my DIY puzzle, lost my way. cab dunno the way and dropped me at newton. took a train from there to orchard and the Wisma exit was blocked so took the long way in the rain from orchard boulevard with the dragon line of people walking like snails.

Mood Status: 80%.

missed the show

Mood Status: 70%

and guess what, left my wallet at the entrance! Didnt realized until her mum drove us for sightseeing the christmas lights (same ol no diff disappointing), and we reach batok where we are supposed to drink coffee bean and tea leaf and suppose didnt happen. realized after her mum left us alone so yea, quick thinking of piggy got us a cab straight down to the pines again.

Mood Status: 50%.

Reached there, collected it back from that kind receptionist and left there again

Mood Status: 40%.

On the way back was stuck in a jam summoned from nowhere

Mood Status: 30%.

Reached Far East and settled for pastamania, i had a 10" pizza and italian soda for myself. Piggy was downtrodden enuf and went for a Marinara. This time not even our favorite restaurant and savage the mood lost... countdown was absolutely un-cool btw. Gave her the present and Christmas well wishes and we took a cab home. 3rd cab trip in 3 hours. great!

Mood Status: 10%.

Reached Piggy home and she suggested/persuaded me to stay over. so came into my nest of happiness and rejuvenate ourselves.

Mood Status: 100% =) . Love you loads piggy dear

Day 3: Christmas Day! Morning left Piggy house coz she's got to teach tuition and i have relatives coming to visit. The plan was to meet piggy afterwards at my home. So she came and mingled a while before they left and we soon left too for a movie! (We love movies coz we can snack anything inside! Name any fast food restaurant and their food would be on the guilty-for-bringing-into-cinema list. The most daring one was smuggling a packet of Chinese mixed rice we got from hawker. doh should see the eyes of our neighbours! XD)

Watched Bedtime Stories, with Adam sandler plummeted by raining gumballs. Ate pick and grill western at amk hub's food junction. after that went for chocolate drink at coffee bean and tea leaf. Finally cleared the doubt of whose drink (Belgian or Ultimate) contains Almonds. None! Haha =X. Sent her home and went home with a great chirstmas spent with her.

Day 4: Time for friends to gather around, went to Sarah's place, was late but still ate great nonya food! Received a present (lanyard) from Sarah
Thank you Sarah! ^^

Just like Landon said "cheated death" at the piano. Played some round of dai dee and bridge, sent julian home and wasnt part of the gift exchange. coz i didnt bring any.. yea.. got to know one more delicious food existing on motha earth. Everyone sing! : London chocoroll~ london chocoroll~. The notes are C D CD | C - -| C D CD | E - -

Wth =.= hey its true ok? go try it.

And that folks was how i spend my christmas. ^^

2008-12-28T04:13:00.009+08:00

As promised ppl, here are the pictures of my digital piano!

This is the overlook of it. nice orange glow huh? imagine playing in the dark ^^
Oolala look at e LCD display (only this model of digital piano has it). whole 88 keys display. on the right you can see the entire scale. 8vas are used to display higher notesA smorgasbord of buttons. there's also a pitch bend wheel that only this model has (double kill!) and that trusty numpad. they added shortcut-button-area for quick access to the type of instrument.
Noticed how the piano stands? it wasnt supposed to. the stand comes free! on top of that, this is free too ^^
and this free too.. a 3 pedal compared to a simple sustain pedal

NOW FEAST YOUR EYES ON THE SPECIFICATIONS (=.=) :
Sound Engine: ZPI (Zygotech Polynomial Interpolation)
Optimized data compression and a polynomial interpolation based waveform playback process combine to produce amazingly clear and realistic sounds. O_O wth is this? all i know that its the 3rd best engine they offer. All i know that the best engine casio will jack the price up by up to $400.

Waveform: Tri-element
Three separate samples of a grand piano are employed for strong, light, and medium keyboard pressure. The result is an amazing range of expression for a digital piano. ^^ goodie

Scaled Hammer Action Keyboard
As if the lower keys are hitting large strings in the piano, they are heavier and vice versa.

Hammer Action Keyboard
The bounce and weight feels like normal piano keys!
Touch Response
Press hard, loud. Press light, soft. Anywhere in between? No worries! Supports pp to ff !Full 88 keys! Most important
Speaks by themselves i guess

The first is the number of tones (aka instruments), followed by the rhythms (accompaniment) and the song capacity. The MEMO is a function to store your combination of the above. meaning you can have strings on accompaniment and honky tonk on instruments in the piano's memory, recalling whenever you need them. The last function automatically configures the ideal settings for any rhythm. One Touch Preset setting include tone, tempo, and more.

Synthesizer Function
Find that piano sound too unlike the grand? Tone parameters can be altered to create original sounds, which can then be saved in on-board memory.

From what i just learnt, drawbar control the sound of organs. This function lets you virtually tune the drawbars! interesting =)

High-quality digital effects!
100 DSP effects including acoustic resonance, 16 reverbs and 16 choruses.
Reproduces the resonant effect of a grand piano damper pedal!

Finally, i can expand my tones with downloaded content online! There's also a cd bundled to concoct some complicated stuff ^^

2008-12-27T19:50:00.000+08:00

Today is a significant day.
The signs are coming....... my mission is dawning....

I am a step into realizing the profound mission of my life. For y'all no-lifers, get a life! Every one's meant to do something! The key is "value", create "values". In Mandarin it means "Chuang Jia". In Japanese, its "Soka".

From here it isn't so hard to guess where all these "bullshit" came from. Made in Singapore, comprising of 30,000+ members, is the Singapore Soka Association (SSA).

WOWAZAHT!

Sounds complicated and alien-ish, but rest assured its nothing different from City Harvest or those myriad of church names rooted in almost every street of Singapore. Though there is one difference. It is a buddhist spiritual organisation (in the most general manner). I am not ashamed to declare I am a buddhist, and one of the few from my organisation (not that i know any), who blogs with his spiritual belief as an integral part.

I have followed the practice of many christians... XD As a side note, their persuasive abilities are something I and everyone I know from my organisation have respect for. ;) keep it up y'all

There may not be many questions from you, but there are many answers from me. From today you will be seeing my life, though my music and experiences. I cannot say my life is miserable, nor can i say its like most of you.

From the buddhist standpoint, every has his/her mission, and that mission will shape that person's life. I am proud to have lived a different life from you guys, though after seeing it, it's hard to not believe it's false. o.O

Anyways why is today a significant day to all this crap?

I................
have..........
received......
my.............
new/first.....
digital........
piano!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(pop some party poppers please)

Casio Privia Series PX 410-R. Thanks to The Pianoman shop, i have got it at a special discounted price of $1530!!! the original is $1799!! Wohaha! Rule one: network IS essential XD

I will take my time to list down the specifications and functions of this *@&%omguber underdog piece of.... uhhh.... thing? Not to forget pictures!! It will happen on the next post i promise. Its good to mention that all this would not have be possible without the financial assistance of my sick mother who battled cancer for 10 years.

And she's still alive =.= stop thinking giberrish. doh! ><